winter

its not winter...
i m feeling under the weather.... a different kind of weather.... gloomy weather... i feel depressed...
all becos of work i guess...

times i heard people say that people born in winter are introvert and those in summer extrovert...
the weather changes and the mood swings too...

its been ayear since i last felt so... helpless.... depressed... and stare blank blank without knowing wat to do...
but the diff this time is i snapped out of it faster... i grabbed solutions...

stupid collegues...
result in my restlessness..
good thing is that is not all that bad....

some colleagues are still real and good to have....

i went to work

i woke up this morning... having the rare pleasure to see leng still lazing on bed
i know the struggle... the pain .... the unwillingness to get up in the morning to do up ypurself before u get to work
i dont understand... in my world,,,
i am still full of zealouys after going to be two years in my company... blessed i am... able to switch between accounts and having my best fren, brother, partner in crime at work...

the days i think i m tired i am actually not working... i is energised when i m in motion... ( i typed the following without looking at the keyboard.... amazing huh!) how brain recognise things without looking at things..
over and out...\\tish

will those that still happened to read this blog please stand up pullesss stand up

hey ho! those reading this blog please let a short comments..... at least i know there are still soul reading this blog.

i have been lazy....... more like i have been in a state of mental constipation....
nothing really excite me to really blog anything...

till now.,,
a realisation that i realise....(wat the?)

okie okie....
there was a time, when people say singapore wont make it,,,,,,, but we did,,,,,,,

opsss

not that either


serioud tone now


there was a time when the people around me started to get there first job.... first independent.... first self assured spending power,,,,,

it was fresh...... interesting


then it become a time when everyone tying the knot..... and have a home of their own....

recently,,,, i get news of people i know become dad and mum...

even i m a overdued uncle to be,,,, (my sis is preggy)

so much so,,,,, i get to see kiddos growing up....

i wonder wat will be next


i resent when i think that when the days come will all my frens will be not on this earth,,,,
when the day my love ones and all the people around me expired.....
and all i do in my old age is to attend wake....

somehow i wished i die later than leng... not that i wish her to die first....

but i dont wan her to face the saddness seeing me in the coffin when she drags the days onwards .... living another day,,,,

live for the day i say...... be happy for now wat u have